Tuesday, January 26, 2010

In Which I Wax Philosophical and Also Have a Lunch Idea

I've said it before, but I hate lunch. I never know what to eat, and I am known to complain about it. I end up eating leftovers more often than not, but if we've gone out the night before, or if I'm just not feeling it, I end up whining a lot and eating mac and cheese or something very unfulfilling, which then results in heavy snacking and sadness later. It's all very dramatic.

But when I went to Costco the other day, I decided to buy some falafel. (Speaking of Costco-- it is one of the only things that ever makes me want to have a big family. then I would have an excuse to buy so many of the delicious things that feed far more people then I ever have the occasion to feed. Yes, buying in bulk makes me want to have more kids.) So, yeah, I bought some falafel. I thought it could help my lunch predicament. I also bought some flat bread from trader joe's with a bunch of crunchy vegetables-- green peppers, lettuce, and cucumbers. I tossed them all together with some of this divine lemon yogurt sauce, and it made a fantastically satisfying lunch-- which is good, because I have oodles and scads more falafel, since it came from Costco.
The other thing I want to say is that I am really, really happy. When we first moved to Virginia, I started thinking what did we do?! I realized that the boredom I often experience as a stay-at-home mom is the same wherever I live, and I was also incredibly (painfully, achingly) lonely. But in the last month or so, I have started to feel so at home here. I am really starting to feel like I have a life here. And the other thing is that, for so long, I have had this image in my head of The Person I Want To Be, and it's been so drastically different from The Person I Actually Am. But I feel like I'm finally taking charge and making changes in my life. I feel more at peace with the things I know I can't change, and I feel so excited about the things I am doing to make my life the one I want it to be. In short, I am happy-- and I haven't felt like this in a long, long time. Life is good.


  1. mmm, falafel! i didn't know they sold it there? maybe i've never looked.

    i'm glad you're happy here. we're happy that you live by us!!

  2. I'm happy you're happy. And I miss you.

  3. That's great! I hope to reach that point of happiness later this year but you give me hope.

  4. I am so, so happy to read that you're doing well. :) I miss you like crazy - but am so thrilled that you're settling in and finding yourself.
    Love you!
    (and - I love that Costco makes you want to have a large family.)